background
working from prior deep specialties technology music (what X calls aspecialist theory of knowledge) first being: that developing a professional fluency in some craft has a profound effect on my worldview, and not feeling that as a payoff of study and effort, but really almost a profound horror: - being aware of how narrow my deep skillsets are - but enough depth to imagine how much knowledge and work should accrete pressure of time value vs being able to explore freely gamble I don't see the majority of the time has having been productive of itself always constant: reading and moving. (although it's only at its ends related to RC) the problem of how to live a full year of study, researching, building, and quickly scrapping ideas deeply ungenerous learning, I wanted to push into the margins and the decision this made without my ackowledging was that communicating
up the ladderof the eight footnote, level of digression blind Trail of Bits as exactly what I wanted but not good unique period of plasticity in career and investing go all-in on diversifying, develop adjacent profesioncies the internal pressure of having uneven development wanting to synthesize as much of this (as a growing project) into a few works working coopertively with friendly accountability documenting this on, and publishing, a portfolio reading list self-published thesis this has been enough of an accomplishment to the extent of writing its own page. I had a funny memory getting this set up. in the school's "computer lab", getting frustrated fine-motor task with the mouse that I was really bad at couldn't use the mouse with my left hand (my dominant hand) where flicking around with a mouse and drawing at the same time felt like suddenly being able to "dual-wield" 3 rules Learn Generously I did not succeed at this in any significant sense. conversations with River downloaded, played with, and catalogged a gigabyte of fonts
self-study
writing that synthesizes existing material essay references:
architectural theory and computer engineering in computer architectural theory, literary theory in close readings of hello world,
for ? discourse media studies applied to a film and novel in virtual machines and ideology, uh art?: public and performance online
progressing career as a computer engineer based on two conclusions:
the scale and scope of ideas involved is much larger
an outside in
approach to developing technology:
including computers in design processes,
which can be appropriately situated,
considered a liability
architecture: Architectonics music publishing and media production: kinetic scores for online publishing see the publication manual
oblique reference to reading philosophy, as something that indicates you've read it and understood it only so far as you can apply it
design and media
after losing access to the Adobe and Autodesk CAD software I was trained on,
I had the time to learn open-source tools: Blender, video and image editing.
art history increadibly over-developed focus on music relative to other forms
getting deep into one field, coming to appreciate how dominant this understandg has had in shaping my view of reality this was not anything like an empowering feeling: that, what I kind see as a "knowledge gradient" of varying (mostly useless) back up and apply that potential to other fields how can I have strong opinions about computers in isolation it can feel like theory is at so great a remove from the facts that is loses touch with practice. theory can not tell us how things should be, a value-free view of reality list and explain personal and broader significance of ~3 artworks [Lang 2010]'s proof of origami turing-completeness link Erik Demaine's MIT course. I did a mini-seminar on this and separately published the [notes]. testing out work anonymously working mostly anonymously? is that what I've done? the problem of demonstrability, that what I did I don't want to, or can't, present should be obvious a motivation that has been happening this whole time I didn't know I was doing it day walk without a destination,